The Waves of Motherhood

Yesterday I hosted a circle with 20 women, and I was sharing something that has been so real in this season of motherhood.

The waves.

There is a constant rise and fall.

There are moments where I feel steady, clear, capable and then there are moments where I’m brought all the way to the floor, questioning everything I thought I knew about myself.

The range feels so wide. Almost disorienting.

As I shared, my friend Allie reflected something back to me that I can’t stop thinking about.

She said, you are the water, you are not the wave.

I am the water. I am not the wave. 

Motherhood feels like waves.

It will stretch you, undo you, humble you, crack you open in ways you didn’t see coming.

But the waves are not who you are.

They are what shape you and refine you.

The waves expand your ability to be more of yourself. And that is what an upgrade is.

Motherhood is the ultimate upgrade not because it makes life easier, but because it shatters every illusion of control you were holding onto.

It brings you to your knees—

and in that place, asks you to meet yourself more honestly than ever before.

To become wider.

Truer.

More deeply rooted in who you actually are beneath it all.

You are not failing in the waves. You are being formed by them.

And underneath it all you are still the water.